I want my wagon back … Part 1

It truly sucks when you fall off the wagon. Especially if you’ve been perched high up there, atop the hay bales, basking in the sunshine, and feeling all positive and pleased as punch with yourself.

Like I was.

We are now – if you can believe it – a quarter of the way through 2014. Three months gone. Already.

And how am I doing with my #FocusEnergy2014 project? How am I going with my big plan to restore my health and my energy levels to where they should be?

Pfffttttttttttttttt … sums it up quite nicely.

I am on my butt. Wagonless. After falling off it, and watching it roll away. Way away.

I guess I kinda did jump, actually. It was no accident that I toppled off.

The thing is, I took a bit of a hit last month that blindsided me.

After months of struggling with an ongoing health issue, I was advised that instead of the minor procedure I was originally told I’d need to put things right, I actually need quite a major operation.

It’s nothing sinister, or life threatening. Thank goodness. It’s just not what I expected.

It is nothing like what I expected.

And almost three weeks on, I’m still reeling from the shock of it.

Surgical operations are not something I have a lot of experience with. Consequently, the news has knocked me majorly off course. And I don’t do ‘off course’ very well.

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I’ll be honest, I haven’t even thought about #FocusEnergy2014 these past few weeks. It’s been a bit like walking around in a befuddled stupor. In slow-motion. And yet the days have just flown by. So. Ridiculously. Fast.

I’ve been really vague. And terribly stressed. I’ve functioned OK, but I’ve really only gone through the motions and done what’s necessary. My achievements have been few and far between.

It’s understandable, and I’m certainly not beating myself up over it. I’m just not very happy about it.

I want my wagon back.

Right now, I’m shaking off the last vestiges of stunned-mullet dazedness, and I’m ready to climb atop those hay bales, and bask in the sunshine again. April will be better. Much better. I just need to focus my energy. And find my wagon.

Please let me know if you see it, yeah?

What do you do to get back on your wagon after a fall (or jump!)?

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How focused are you?

When I found this ecard a week or so ago, I carefully filed it away in preparation for this post. It perfectly sums up my February.

My focus went out the window in February. Not completely. Just mostly.

I lost focus of my focus. I had about as much focus as a banana.

Go figure.

It’s not all bad. Not really. I’m quite pleased with all the positives that came out of February. And there are a few …

  • I managed to keep off coffee and milk 100%. I’ve maybe ‘fancied’ a coffee once or twice, but overall I’m really not missing it.
  • I had a few situations arise where I either couldn’t, or didn’t want to, avoid gluten. Sometimes I felt fine after I ate it, but mostly my stomach went into churning and tumbling overdrive! Not nice. I plan to continue giving gluten a miss as much as I can.
  • I’m still drinking a bucketload of water (give or take). I’m averaging around three litres a day now, made up of two litres of filtered water, and about three or four mugs of herbal tea.
  • The gym has definitely become an ingrained habit, and I’m really enjoying it. Especially now that I can feel my fitness improving. My back and legs have felt so weak for such a long time. I’m just now starting to feel strength in them again. It’s such a relief.

Treading water
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So basically, February ended up being a maintenance month.

Rather than a big leap forward in my #FocusEnergy2014 adventure, I managed to tread water. Not ideal. But not a step backwards either.

I nominated three areas to focus my energy in February. I had a go at all three of them. Overall it was a pretty half-arsed attempt, if I’m completely honest. Needless to say, the results were lacklustre and disappointing.

  1. Sleep … I managed a reasonable bed time approximately 50% of the month, which is marginally better than usual, I guess. I really struggle with this one. Most nights 10.30pm rolls around and I’m not ready to sleep. So I stay up for a while, reading or researching. Next thing I know it’s ridiculous o’clock. Where does the time go?
    I’m just going to keep carrying this one over until I suss it.
  2. Time Management … All hail the ‘To Do’ list! I was getting nowhere fast with managing my time. Then I started scrawling a daily ‘To Do’ list. Throughout the day I add to it, cross things off, amend items. Mostly I cross things off though, and it feels so good when I do. I’m getting loads more done, which is definitely a step in the right direction. I always used to work this way. I’m not exactly sure when or why I stopped doing it.
    This one is also a continuing work in progress.
  3. Clutter Clearing … Epic fail for this one. Epic. I managed to deposit three shopping bags full of Kate’s old toys and books to the charity bins down the road. And that was it. Hardly what I had in mind.
    It is a start, I guess. But a lame one.
    Another one carried over into March.

I’m loath to add anything more to the list for March, because I feel I should be concentrating on regaining my focus and working on the things I’ve carried forward from February.

Like just about everyone I know, my head is constantly full of so much stuff too. Work stuff. Home stuff. Kid stuff. Family stuff. Ideas. Thoughts. Stuff. And more stuff.

I think that maybe I should work on clutter clearing my head as well. That might just help with achieving all the other things on the list. Wouldn’t that be something?!

How focused are you?
Have you got it sorted … or did you answer ‘banana’, as well?

Au revoir January … and hello to you February!

January is over already.

I wrote that down so I could read it back to myself. Because I need to actually see it to believe it.

January is over already.

What the? 

It is just stunning to me how quickly the time flies these days. Even slow, lazy days flash by way too fast. It’s scary when you stop and think about it, isn’t it? Which is why I try not to. Not too often, anyway.

January was a really good month for me. My naturopath worked her magic and got me feeling like me again (read about it here).

Then I kicked off my #FocusEnergy2014 project by getting stuck into my list of monthly mini-goals (read about them here). I would love to tell you that I nailed them all with my eyes shut, while standing on my head, and singing New York New York at the top of my lungs. But I’d be lying.

I haven’t managed to stand on my head in years.

All bad jokes aside, I didn’t do too badly at all. Here’s how it all went:

Establish a gym routine by going three mornings a week
I only missed one day. One measly Monday. On the Australia Day long weekend. I’m really happy with that result. What I am most happy about though, is that going to the gym is now an ingrained habit. Which is exactly the outcome I wanted.

I was foiled by a national holiday
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Focus on nutrition, water intake and sleep.
Nutrition: I cut right back on dairy, gluten, alcohol and refined sugars, and I feel a lot better for it. I also kept a detailed journal for most of the month and tracked what I ate and drank. It’s a really good exercise to do, because it makes it easy-peasy to see any issues that might be lurking. I very quickly discovered that I need healthier snack options on hand, so that I don’t grab for the wrong thing when hunger strikes.

Water: The thing about drinking water is, it’s really easy to forget to do it. Which is why I bought myself a water filter jug that now lives permanently on my kitchen bench. I also carry a one litre pop top drink bottle with me everywhere. Throughout the month I managed to build up to drinking two litres of water a day (three, on really hot days), plus three or four large mugs of herbal tea. The improvement in my skin was noticeable after only two weeks. My skin on my forearms had been looking all old and dried up. Now it doesn’t. Result!

Say hello to my new best friend
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Sleep: This one still needs more work. The naturopathic supplements I’m taking have certainly helped with the quality of sleep I’m getting, but I still need to work on going to bed at a consistent time each night. I’m carrying this mini-goal over into February.

Tie-Up 2013’s loose ends
I left this one right until the very last minute. Technically I didn’t even achieve it because I didn’t start it until this week. By which time it was already February. It is done though, so that’s the main thing, right?

Thank you Universe. For sending me this kick up the butt.

Au revoir January, my friend. You were really good to me. Thank you.

And hello to you lovely February. What do you have in store for me, I wonder? Where will I focus my energy this month, hmmmmmm?

It just so happens, I’ve got it all sorted out.

Firstly, I need to do some more work on my sleeping habits, so this one is being carried over and gets top billing.

Next, I’d like to start managing my time a lot better on the days I’m not working. I tend to get distracted easily, and I’m a very proficient procrastinator. The result being that I never quite achieve everything I set out to do. It’s frustrating and it causes me stress. So in February, it will change.

Not any more. No sirreeeee Bob ;o)x

And finally, it’s not spring yet, but it is time for me to have a clear out and get my cupboards and pantry and spare rooms in order. I felt so unwell last year that I didn’t have the energy to do much at all, let alone get stuck into a much needed de-clutter. Thankfully this year is very different, which means that this month I can begin.

Now then, please excuse me. I need to get this show on the road. February is a short month and I have a truckload (or three) of stuff to get sorted!

Was January good to you too?
Can you believe it’s February already?

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Hormonally speaking …

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I have second guessed myself all week about writing this blog post.

It’s a personal subject, and I’ve been wondering whether I should go ‘there’. Or not. Plus, I can be a bit of a worry-wart, and I would hate to think that I am seen as being self-indulgent, or an over-sharer. Because that is so not my style at all.

My reason behind writing this post is a simple one. I hope, hope, hope that it might help someone. Either you, or someone you know. Now, or perhaps further down the track. I love that the blogosphere provides such an accessible platform to share information.

A blog post I read earlier this week was the catalyst that finally got me writing today. If you haven’t had the pleasure of discovering Amy Crawford from The Holistic Ingredient yet, please check her out. She is fabulous. And oh so incredibly inspiring.

Her blog post in question is entitled, ‘How to be your most fertile self.’

It is relevant to women of all ages. Not just those wanting to fall pregnant. Amy says in her introduction …

“Being fertile is a whole lot more than kids –
it’s about being at your optimum health.”

So much of Amy’s post resonated with me, which is why I stopped second guessing myself, took a big deep breath, pulled up my superhero-brave-girl-pants (on the outside, of course), and started writing …

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I am a long-standing advocate of alternative therapies. Since my early 30’s I have had great success using a variety of natural treatments to heal and manage a diverse assortment of different issues. Most notably, I can unreservedly credit a wonderful naturopath I was treated by with the arrival of our darling daughter Kate.

In traditional medical terms, Kate’s conception was ‘unassisted’. Meaning I didn’t undergo IVF treatment or use fertility drugs. I was very much assisted though, by a highly trained professional who prescribed me a carefully tailored blend of supplements and essences that balanced my hormones and prepared my body for pregnancy. She also insisted that I follow a fairly strict gluten free diet.

Having suffered through the physical and emotional pain of a miscarriage only weeks earlier, I must admit, I was a tad sceptical at first. I mean, I was very much the wrong side of 40. The odds of me falling pregnant again were not good. Right?

Within five short months, two little blue lines appeared on the pregnancy test.

I was pregnant. Naturally. At the grand old age of 42.

My faith in the abilities of professional naturopathy practitioners is therefore, understandably, very strong.

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I have already blogged about how 2013 was far from a stellar year for me (here). It was around October that I pretty much hit rock bottom, and a lovely friend of mine recommended a Melbourne-based naturopath to me.

There was no hesitation on my part. I contacted her straight away.

She tested my saliva and my urine for hormonal imbalances. My oestrogens and progesterone, and my serotonin and dopamine levels were checked (amongst many, many others). Via blood tests, my GP had already established that I’m not pre-menopausal just yet. The very precise saliva and urine test results confirmed this, but they still came back showing imbalances all over the place. No wonder I was feeling so hideously out of whack. No wonder I felt so miserable and I looked like such a mess.
No wonder.

I started taking my daily handful of hormone-targeting supplements on January 2nd. I felt no real change during the first week. Although I did notice that I was sleeping better than I had done in ages.

It was last week that I started to notice a tangible difference.

My skin seemed to clear up overnight. I couldn’t believe my eyes. I have been suffering with acne and rosacea quite badly since Kate was born. It’s been painful and very distressing. Particularly for someone who has never had to deal with it before, even as a teenager.

I also felt much less agitated and aggro. I felt so much more calm and better able to cope with, well, everything. My mood lifted. My stress levels dropped. I suddenly had more energy. I actually felt like smiling. Genuine smiles too. Not just because it was the polite thing to do.

The best way to describe it, I guess, is to say that I felt like me again.

Me. Not some miserable imposter my body was playing host to.

I cannot tell you the relief I felt. Such blissful, overwhelming relief.

A massive part of balancing my hormones also involves restoring my gut health. One of the comments in Amy Crawford’s post that resonated with me the most was this one …

“If we can figure out what our bodies are actually telling us, then we can treat
the root cause – which is most often gut health.  i.e acne, period pain, irregular
menstrual cycles, PMS etc are all signs the body’s hormones are imbalanced.”

It’s not simply about swallowing a handful of naturopathic supplements each day either. It’s about making sure that I nourish myself with the right nutrients through the foods I eat. Whenever possible, it is whole foods and clean eating all the way for me now. Intuitively I have eliminated coffee, gluten, most dairy and refined sugars, and already I’m feeling so much better for it.

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I think it’s important that I point out that I am also working closely in conjunction with my GP. Along with the supplements, it is necessary for me to take a low dose hormone prescription medication as well at this stage, but I’m hoping that won’t be for long.

Since I turned the corner last week, I keep asking myself the same question. How many poor women are there out there who feel miserable and unhappy for no obvious reason? Women who are struggling to cope? Who feel agitated and aggro all the time? All because their hormones are dancing to the beat of a very different and wrong kind of drum. How many? I wonder how many relationships and marriages suffer unnecessarily because hormones are wreaking their insidious havoc? I honestly dread to think.

If you (or someone you know) is struggling with what you think might be hormonal issues, please get help from whichever type of practitioner you feel most comfortable with. I strongly recommend involving your GP too.

Because you don’t have to feel the way you do. You honestly don’t.

Have you had success with natural therapies in the past?

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It had to be two …

So. There I was. All fired up and gung ho about finding my word for 2014. My one word to sum up everything that I’m aiming to achieve this year.

One word is all I needed.

Just one.

I began with quite the extensive list. Then, over the last week, I managed to whittle it down to a couple of really strong contenders.

On New Year’s Eve eve (aka the 30th), I went to sleep with my two remaining words swirling round and around in my head. I told myself that whichever word was the first one I thought of when I woke up, was THE ONE.

It worked a treat. I found my one word easy peasy. Piece of cake.

It is <drumroll> …

FOCUS

(FYI ‘Positive’ came in as runner up.)

I was really happy with that. I liked my new word a lot. It’s no secret that I need to focus more. And I need to get better at finding and maintaining my focus.

Between you and me, I have a tendency to be a bit scattered. It’s because I try to do too many things at once. I know that. I’ve always been like it. So naming this year, FOCUS 2014 was right on the money.

I had it all sorted.

Or so I thought.

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On New Year’s actual Eve, after our guests had left, and after my husband and my party animal daughter had crashed out on the couch together, I sat down at the computer to see what the rest of the world was up to.

I checked out the latest headlines, and I scrolled through my FaceBook newsfeed. Then I logged in to my blog to see what had been happening over there.

A new comment had been posted on my 2014 … Bring it on, I say! post. It was written by Kelly, whose fab blog – A Life Less Frantic – I follow (she’s from Perth too).

The first and the last sentences Kelly wrote bopped me fair and square between the eyes …

“Gosh I love you Jo and the energy you bring to everything you do!”
“Can’t wait to see where your energy takes you in 2014 xx”

It was around about then that I did my very best ever stunned mullet impersonation.

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Who, me?

The one thing I have probably struggled with the most in 2013 is low energy. Not just the obvious, tangible physical energy, but the intangibles too. The metaphysical energies; emotional, spiritual and mental. It’s been upsetting and frustrating and also quite debilitating. A big part of my 2014 plan is to work hard on restoring my health and my energy levels – all of them – to where they should be.

He’s a bit of a clever clogs that Anthony Robbins
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I eventually went to bed on New Year’s morning with another word doing the swirly thing in my head.

Energy.

When I woke up it was still there. And so too, was Focus.

I like them both. I am unable to choose just one over the other. So I am going to have them both.

It had to be two …
#FocusEnergy2014

Kelly’s timing, and her choice of words, could not have been more perfect. Or ironic, really. I am so chuffed that despite my body’s physical lack of energy, I haven’t lost it completely in the metaphysical sense. I figure I can’t have. Not if Kelly’s felt it through my written bloggy words, right? You have no idea how inspiring and how encouraging that is for me. Because I honestly felt like I’ve been zapped of absolutely everything.

She’s a bit of a clever clogs too, Kelly is. Without knowing it, she has helped to set me fair and square on my path for the next 12 months. Combining Focus with Energy can only equal greatness. And flow. Thank you so much Kelly. Your lovely words were the catalyst I didn’t even realise I needed :o)x

Ok, so, where to from here?

Well, my starting point for #FocusEnergy2014 is to use the 31 days of January to develop a few new habits. These are my Monthly Mini Goals for January:

Firstly, I will be taking myself off to the gym three mornings a week for either a power walk or a bike ride. I need to establish a gym attendance routine as a matter of priority. So I’m gonna get me one.

Next, I will be focusing closely on my nutrition, my water intake and my sleep patterns. So, nothing major there then. Much.

And lastly, I want to tie up all the loose ends and unfinished business left over from 2013. You know. That pile of stuff that you never quite got to in December because Christmas was breathing down your neck? Yeah. That. I need it gone. (Note to self: Dumping it all in the bin is not an option.)

Right then. Let’s get this #FocusEnergy2014 show on the road. You are more than welcome to jump on my bandwagon with me, with your own set of Monthly Mini Goals, and come along for the ride.

Go on. I dare ya ;o)x

What will you be focusing on this month / year?
All hints tips and advice for boosting energy will be most gratefully received.

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