It truly sucks when you fall off the wagon. Especially if you’ve been perched high up there, atop the hay bales, basking in the sunshine, and feeling all positive and pleased as punch with yourself.
Like I was.
We are now – if you can believe it – a quarter of the way through 2014. Three months gone. Already.
And how am I doing with my #FocusEnergy2014 project? How am I going with my big plan to restore my health and my energy levels to where they should be?
Pfffttttttttttttttt … sums it up quite nicely.
I am on my butt. Wagonless. After falling off it, and watching it roll away. Way away.
I guess I kinda did jump, actually. It was no accident that I toppled off.
The thing is, I took a bit of a hit last month that blindsided me.
After months of struggling with an ongoing health issue, I was advised that instead of the minor procedure I was originally told I’d need to put things right, I actually need quite a major operation.
It’s nothing sinister, or life threatening. Thank goodness. It’s just not what I expected.
It is nothing like what I expected.
And almost three weeks on, I’m still reeling from the shock of it.
Surgical operations are not something I have a lot of experience with. Consequently, the news has knocked me majorly off course. And I don’t do ‘off course’ very well.
I’ll be honest, I haven’t even thought about #FocusEnergy2014 these past few weeks. It’s been a bit like walking around in a befuddled stupor. In slow-motion. And yet the days have just flown by. So. Ridiculously. Fast.
I’ve been really vague. And terribly stressed. I’ve functioned OK, but I’ve really only gone through the motions and done what’s necessary. My achievements have been few and far between.
It’s understandable, and I’m certainly not beating myself up over it. I’m just not very happy about it.
I want my wagon back.
Right now, I’m shaking off the last vestiges of stunned-mullet dazedness, and I’m ready to climb atop those hay bales, and bask in the sunshine again. April will be better. Much better. I just need to focus my energy. And find my wagon.
Please let me know if you see it, yeah?
What do you do to get back on your wagon after a fall (or jump!)?
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